shiina ringo so good. so nostalgic.
makes me want to roll all my r's.

i want to be her. and chara. and limi. and rinko. and that girl from laputa.

just saying.

currently on a judy and mary overload. nostalgic of my tweeeen age. loved this jam before..and no.w... i always loved how the group dynamic. they are all different puzzle pieces that don't and do fit together perfectly. don't we all love the horrible/great 1998-early y2k fashion? i'm especially into her hair. but not so much the denim pants-turned-into-skirts. (all girls had these..oy vey)

went to see and hear Sakamoto Ryuichi a few nights ago.
it was insanely unreal and an amazing experience..i had probably the best seat i could ever ask for, so close and i could see his fingers dancing on the keyboard. i could also see his shiny hair (which was, by the way, so beautifully silver and healthy and voluminious..), and i could also see everytime he finished playing a number he would smile .

by far this was the best concert i've been to.
i was frozen in head trance the whole time.
sometimes shaking
sometimes goosebumps
sometimes holding my breath for too long and then breath and then eyes water a little bit. especially when he moved from his out of noise numbers to bibo no aozora. my soul moved a little bit into a happier space. and of course when he played merry christmas mr lawrence i was nearly almost in tears again. music sounds so differnt raw. and with so much emotion, everybody can feel it in the air.

i felt so nervous when he first came out. all you could see was his sillouette on the dark stage as he played glaciers but not on the keyboard, behind the keyboard. you feel coldness.


i think he has such a humble heart. you can really see in his eyes and everytime he really bows and puts his hands together while people are endlessly applauding. thank you sakamoto san. i;ve known you for 14 years already and this is the first time you ever saw me.

influence

the walls + ceilings of a fondue cafe that Remo, Nadine, Dinh & french friends took me to while in Paris.

i was probably the only one very very excited about these handpainted walls.
i have this quote from the book itself in ink
and everytime i see it i feel comfortable in my skin
sometimes i remind myself who i am now
that i am me
but not me from yesterday
not completely







i just came back from the best concert of my life, details to come.

but right now i want to sleep to his music.
and think about nothing but peaceful dreams