for a long time i kept looking back at him. maybe this time , maybe this time, maybe this time he will remember me. but time kept speeding up like it didn't even exist. one day , after i don't remember how long, i just forgot. well, i didn't forget- it was just gone. anyways, it's horrible to be stuck in the past. i'm not actually stuck. it's not my fault that secretly i remember everything clearly.

out of noise

chris reminded me of how much i used to love ryuichi sakamoto when i was younger. his newest album is in this book format, which his friend curated, looks amazing.










this one i played in a piano recital when i was like 10. or 9 or 12. i forget.



xxx

i don't remember alot of things

did you know that if you sleep more, you have better memory? that explains alot.



top 10 random moments i remember of 2008

10. i learned how to drink beer this summer. thank you alex.
9. ryan and dru visit for my 21st birthday, but i got super sick. it doesnt seem like a big deal, but you only turn 21 once. :(
8. i love being at awang
7. many concerts. nothing beats justice though.
6. cdg x h&m wait with eddie was quite historical.
5. seeing hamish bowles at Ruff Club one friday night.
4. catching freja beja totally making out with another hot blonde model. totally hot.
3. watching about 10,000 fireworks in one night in tokyo. the trip itself with suko and jenn was fucking awesome.
2. bumping into kirsten dunst at lit is one thing, seeing mk is another thing. (loves it)
1. skiing trip with anna in the summer time. quite the experience.


xxx

"no one is free, even the birds are chained to the sky." bob dylan

(photos: http://marciosimnch.com/)

i'm in tokyo now for a few weeks. i've waited for tokyo the whole summer! i planned to come here for two months but that obvi didn't work out. so many things didn't go as planned this summer. actually, nothing went as i planned! always happens. always always.

too many unfortunate events. too many wrong turns and emotional rollercoasters.
aiish! but i also found treasures and such, so i guess it hasn't been too horrible.

i'm looking at tokyo aka my break away from america my rehab time. hopefully i'll regain energy and positivness.

xxx

ps i miss