northern california

mother.

i love to stick my head outside the window on the highway
just like the dogs do.

new york

california

san francisco, california, and andrea

my sister visited me last week. actually it was already 20 days ago (fuck, time flies)

it was the most effort i have put into showing people around ny. i am probably the most horrible host because i hate doing things that involve tourism, and high traffic places (times square , shiver down my spine)

but i will admit it was kind of refreshing to do somethings i don't normally do. like, to actually go to the roof of rockafeller center? yeah, i bet you 80% of new yorkers have not done that. even empire state building! i have done both , booyah. (i say it like it's as if i climbed mount everest.. ) anyway when i was on the roof top actually looking at manhattan and empire state building, and etcetc i thought like "dang i really do live here. this is my 6th year here.." and maybe i feel comfortable in this chaotic place. i think lately i don't want to go back to california. for a long time. actually when i think about california i get really anxious and depressed. it is a veryweirdfeeling let's not talk about this anylonger

my eyes feel bruised

,kind of like when you wake up and you realize you were crying in your sleep. i think i'm just tired from a day of traveling. l.a. - texas - nyc.

i really hate airports, but i really like the sky. today when i was flying from houston to nyc, the clouds looked very dense. like ice cream- not like smog and it made me happy.

i'm sad to be back in nyc. leaving california is always a tough one.

my homework-to-do list

1. digital homework

2. sew muslin (three items, friday)

3. 10 perfect croquis with 360 views (geoffrey beene, thursday)

4. 1 finish with 360 views (geoffrey beene, thursday)

5. pro-keds design

6. buy feathers (100$ worth)

7. prepare for GAP competition interview (tuesday)

8. milan and paris fashion week review (thursday)

9. 1 page paper on geoffrey beene (wednesday)

10. chapter 5-6 arabic (don't ask)

extra things

11. crystal castles on tuesday night

12. fashion illustration exhibit on thursday

looks like i'm not sleeping this week.

xxx