makes me very happy

i feel half dead

tao cdg fall 2010

very tired today, and yesterday. and the day before. and the past week. horrible sleeping schedule is happening again.

i mean, for awhile, i was actually being a human being and sleeping at reasonable hours because a thing called work makes you want to actually sleep before midnight. lately, i've been waking up from these ongoing dreams about a person(s). it's completely driving me insane because it's something i'd like to avoid thinking about at all costs when i'm concious, yet it's haunting me while i am trying to get my 6 hours of sleep!! i wake up breathing hard, confused, crying, and/or feeling absolutely horrible.

help me sleep.

i'm not sure but it's okay

seven stars pleasseeeee! i said i'd stop after two cartons but i cannot.


lately, i've been a bit happier than usual. minus being stressed, but i can't help that. i'm more zen and learned to accept things for the way the are. well, knock on wood because who knows how long zen will last. i think i'm feeling better because i'm always busy with my senior collection.

a friend from back home visited today and it made me happy.

frienships, & relationships, and loveships are weird. all ships are weird. i think it's weird how they make me really really happy and makes me really really sad all the time. so sometimes i wish i didn't have any ships to be on, but then i'd drown.

this is what i was talking about, the moon at appx 2 am from my bed. it lights up my room when i turn the lights off. i actually have trouble sleeping in the dark, but it's ok with the moon.

xxx