over due fotos from thanksgivings, so's birthday, tokio's birthday, yas's birthday, ナベ, christmas party & ボウネンカイ.
in a span of a year, or even less, the people around me have changed.
not forced but naturally.
i feel comfortable.
although i have a huge anxiety of letting people get close to me now, i cherish all friends that i have. because i had to let go of many people i did care about, i cherish the few people from parsons, the few people i met via working, and these kids i have met this year. it's kind of a different appreciation i have for them.
it's always been difficult for me to find a stance with my nationality, because i never could find a strong ground as either american or japanese. i feel nostalgic and connected with both, but a lot of times feel so disconnected that i can't even speak. so i just end up sitting and smiling as i listen to conversations. but
i feel comfortable with them. even if they don't really know me underneath me.
grateful greatful days.