hedi, nyc, 2011
do you ever feel like you are an animal, or were an animal in your past life?
sometimes i feel like cat. maybe not like hedi.
but like many cats,
i'm too selfish at times
too much in need of not public, but personal attention.
too much in need of comfort in covers in even the messiest room
hungry even when fed, because its not the fact there is food in the bowl that is satisfying, but the fact that someone is feeding me
the fact that sleeping next to someone, even with backs turned, is the only comfort wanted
and selfishly will go sit under the bed when alone time calls
selfishly play alone
selfishly sleep alone
selfishly ruin things
selfishly wait for you
and selfishly die where no one sees them